Some decisions are easy.
Some decisions are hard.
I have to make some hard decisions.
In the end it all comes down to one question:
“Do I want to be where I am?”
And — after lots of pondering — the answer is surprisingly simple:
Do I want to live in a country where …
- … summer lasts about one week — it it’s not even hot?
- … it is dark — and I mean really dark — 3-5 months every year?
- … it is common courtesy to ignore each other as much as possible?
Do I want to earn about 30-80% of what I would earn somewhere else?
Do I want to work in a toxic environment where …
- … my skills constantly degrade?
- … my motiviation is gone the moment I enter the office?
Do I want the feeling that …
- … whatever I do doesn’t matter?
Because it’s messed up so badly in other areas that even if I only deliver 1% of what I could I still outperform the others.
- … nobody is listening to me?
Because even if I have one of the highest levels of experience and the best — proven — track record of success
I’ll always run into the “no invented here” wall.
Do I want to work on games that …
- … I feel bad to ask people to spend money on?
- … I want to hide from my CV?
- … I don’t want to play?
Now that I know that I’m not in the right place — what do I do next?
I have no idea,
but knowing that something needs to happen is always a good first step.
The insight is hard — the doing is usually easier. At least for me.
Really, I have no idea.
I guess having a long talk with my boss will be a good start;
And letting the headhunters know I am open for input aka job offers.